Well… honestly I’m ugly… my grade’s dropped… I’m honestly not that good at anything really… yeah I should be understanding you right now but all I’m doing is…

I don’t know what the hell I’m doing. Seriously, I feel so bad for myself and my best friend who gets mad at me and now I really see that I’ve got a problem. A big one. Everyone’s telling me I’ve changed. Soon, I’m sure they will leave too. Everyone will leave me. Yes, I understand I’m so sorry that I’ve changed. If only you guys give me a chance… but that didn’t work I see that. I’m just different. I’m just…. weird, again.

Sometimes I’m not sure if it’s that you want to fix me into a good person or is it that you just hate me so much.

I feel different. The way I act and talk… I feel like I’m a different person. I feel like I’m changing, and it feels SO GOOD.